Update

Right, so I’m going to get slated for EVERYTHING I’ve done since Mondays entry, but hopefully it should give you some interesting reading.

So after being shattered by tiredness on Monday (and have been all week) I decided to get 8 hours sleep for once, however as I’ve become accustomed to more like 4-5 hours I woke up at 6 o’clock, from one of those dreams (I don’t know whether you’ve ever had one?) where you just think the world is going to end because something is deeply deeply wrong. Before It had a chance to slip away I imprinted that dream upon my conscious mind, It was of my (now) ex, she was with another man. I just couldn’t take that, I was beyond devastated, this brought back some home truths, and from a person who usually says “grow a pair” to someone rather than listen to their problems I was in a bad state.
I went to work and my usual humour an sarcasm was harsh and abrupt, this quickly brought me into a clash with my bosses boss who seemed to have had a similarly bad night (and his known for his extremes) after the sentence “do you want to work here? If not you can fuck off!” It was a very short route to what was coming. I was thinking about why he said that, I knew why I was in this mood. I took this moment to install a wireless kb+mouse in a conference that needed doing, as I walked there I was praying it wouldn’t be in use, luckily as it was still only half 8 it wasn’t. I walked in left the lights off and before I could get much done I’d broken down into tears like a little girl. It was quite pitiful, but I can’t remember the last time I’d cried for a reason like this before, and It did me the world of good to realise those feelings.

All you people who are going to call me a cry baby, a pussy or whatever, ok so maybe I was to do that and to be quite frank I’m GLAD I did, to be honest YOU grow a pair, and jump down off of your emotionally retarded horse and live a little.

Anyway, after my little cry I left a quick voice mail on her phone and she got back to me an hour later, we emailed until the end of the day when we agreed to meet for a walk in the park where we started going out, we spent AGES talking which was good as it’s something we hadn’t done, and then we went for a little drive, came back and for some reason I can’t quite remember I got her overexcited as I whispered sweet nothings in her ear. We said our goodbyes and parted.

Wednesday, emailing all day while at work, nothing clingy at all at long last, and we seem to have finally put that spice back into our relationship, although I had to admit all that I had been doing while I was considering breaking up, and once we’d broken up. She said she’d come round to mine while I was out at football to have a chat to my mum (they get on SO well) Well by the time I get home, her car is still outside, which is a good sign as I wasn’t sure how they’d get on. And after a quick cuddle she says seeing as I’m here I may as well see these pictures! I was like err, hmm I haven’t had time to delete them! But she wanted to see all :S

Ok so there were giggles when she went through mine, especially the ones titles oohbaby.jpg
Luckily wasn’t too threatened by pics of Lu, though she did say she was very pretty (I’m not sure whether that works out as a compliment or an insult :S) but she is now heavily considering purchasing a corset, so I’m thankful for that

Ok, so the pictures got the old juices flowing in her, and we got carried away in the moment again despite vowing to take it slow, and that we weren’t going to even see each other that night! So I indulged her with a little oral and she was squirming there trying her best not to scream. I got my afters that’s all I’m saying

Ok, so where are we up to. Ah yes Thursday, Thursday was better still relationship wise, we talk more over email about why I split up and what there was different and how we’d like things to be, and whether we are prepared to do it. Thursday is a lazy day really with me not doing after work apart from laze, and in fact bar a very interesting phone call at half 9 that lasted till 11 nothing much happened apart from me falling deeply asleep and disappointing Lu Aww I promise to make up for it hun! Xxx

Anyway, that brings me to today, and I’ve booked tickets to see the new Charlie and the Chocolate factory, super deluxe sofa style seats and depending on what we fancy later I’ll book a table at a restaurant when we actually get into town

There was so much more detail and I’ve rushed through this since Tuesday pretty much, but I’m going home from work now to enjoy myself so

ta ta, enjoy your weekends